Song I would love to be serenaded with/have played whilst being proposed to: In A Gadda Da Vida
What makes a house nice: cleanliness and love
Dream honeymoon location: A cabin, anywhere
Favorite salad topping: kalamata olives
Favorite Bob Dylan album: Blood on the Tracks and Blonde on Blonde
Current dream makeout location: Bed of moss, or kiddie pool full of pudding
Pet peeve: Trying to make me bicker with you (men have a tendency to do this to me)
Favorite flavor of pie: It's pie, it's all good, but right now I could go for banana cream
Dream car: Porsche-hearse
Do I like apple juice?: No
Best song to dance in the rain to: I don't know if it's the best, but it's the one I wanted to dance in the rain the other day, "I wanna dance with somebody"
Hottest body part of the opposite sex: thighs
Least attractive quality in the opposite sex: yelling, being mean
Most attractive quality in the opposite sex: making me feel like I can be myself completely
I love Spring. It's so much easier to be healthy! I love the sun and the produce! I love hiking and swimming! I love camping and star gazing! I love my whole house! And now onto the music!
Thanks to Ian for introducing me to Band of Skulls!
Thanks to Ben for sending me gems on Spotify all the time!
And thanks to Pandora and Jared for Explosions in the Sky.
I read this blog post to several people, including some guys, and everyone agrees (for the most part) that it rings true.
I just love how honest it is. People always think they have secret, dirty, embarrassing lives- but are they really so secret, dirty, or embarrassing? I don't think so. Everyone (unless they are a-sexual like Morrissey- but I bet it's all to cover up his pain and fear of rejection...wait, Morrisey is sad? Who would have guessed?!) experiences the havoc dopamine causes. Everyone experiences self doubt and fear. Everyone is attracted to someone. Everyone has, or has had, a crush.
I love reading this article to people because I can see the reality of it in them. Some people have a look of horror, like I'm revealing one of their secrets. Most people just say, "Oh my gosh! This is so true!" I just wish people could be more open, I think if we all said what we were thinking more often, then we might all realize that we're all thinking the same thing in one form or another. The older I get, the more normal I realize I am. My whole life people have been telling me I'm weird or awkward, but I realize I'm not much of either, other than the fact that I say things other people would never admit.
We all fall madly "in love" with people we've just met sometimes (some more than others- me).
We all live vicariously through books, movies, Facebook stalking, and daydreaming.
We all have sex dreams.
We all fart, get diarrhea, barf, have boogers, earwax, B.O., hormone hairs, and pimples.
We all worry about our bodies at one point or another.
We all are afraid of something.
We all compare ourselves to others.
We all just want love.
We all have bad hair days.
We all suffer.
We all face loss.
Regardless of gender, age, appearance, socioeconomic status, education, tastes, or any other differences we can find, we are all human.
And for your listening enjoyment (warning, contains at least 2 swear words), my namesake:
This post is mostly me freaking out and not finishing my thoughts, hello word vomit. This post is about some of my fears. This post is about love. This post is about chemicals.
I am a crazy mama jama. Heck-a-tolito, we all are. It just blows my mind how one day I can be convinced that I have to be with one guy, because I'm "in love" with him, and then the next day I'm all googly eyed for another. Sometimes I feel super mental/dotty/off the rocker, but then I remember, everyone is crazy. Thank you chemicals.
This is the "crazy in love", the "falling in love" phase.
We think obsessively of our lover-- we may eat less, loose sleep, and look forward to the time when we will see them next. We may sneak out to meet them, daydream about the relationship, or feel we can't live without them. This part of love may seem crazy because it really is. The brain is responding to many different chemicals.
Dopamine is released when we're crazy in love-- the same as if we are on cocaine or nicotine! Norepinephrine (aka, Adrenaline) speeds up our heartbeat and gets us excited. Seratonin levels are typically low in a new relationship-- the same patterns are found in the brain in love as in people with obsessive compulsive disorder!
This stage is also called "Falling in love", or a "crush", or "infatuation".
Crazy? Maybe. But it's nature's way of getting us to move on to the next level in love-- attachment." I've referred to this dopamine thing before, remember "cocaine brain?" Shudder. It's wonderful and AWFUL.
Holy horrifying!
This is one of the many reasons I am so scared to get married! A. What if we "fall in love" and it was all dopamine!? B. Sure the spirit will guide you, but I'm sorry- the feelings of the spirit can feel an awful lot like the feelings of dopamine! C. What if I go CRAYZAY and rush into something, when I know- in my level state of mind- that I should wait?! Friends, if I try to rush into something...
STOP ME.
"A pair of powerful spectacles has sometimes sufficed to cure a person in love." -Friedrich Nietzsche
Other things that scare me, but also fascinate the crap out of me:
Deep water Spiders
Serial Killers
Heights
Big Foot/Sasquatch/Nessie
The Apocalypse
Snakes
Aliens
I'm not sorry for being me. I'm not sorry for being a terrible writer. I'm not sorry for being crazy, emotional, and a woman. I am sorry for being so repetitive with these posts.
