These days I seem to think a lot About the things that I forgot to do And all the times I had the chance to.

I had one of those days, and being the lazy sod that I am, I'm going to put it in list form. 

1. I had a nightmare that my niece was eaten whole by a crocodile. I grabbed that mother beast and pried it's mouth open, only to find Lucy's torn and destroyed corpse inside. Obviously it was upsetting. If it was a complete stranger I'd be upset, but my favorite baby girl niece in the universe? Yeah, I was upset. From the start I felt icky. I couldn't help but think of the Ben Folds song, Trusted:

"The sun's coming up

She's pulled all the blankets over

Curled in a ball

Like she's hiding from me and

That's when I know

She's gonna be pissed when she wakes up

For terrible things I did to her in her dreams"

I tried to shake the feeling. I read this amazing talk.

I listened to music that always cheers me up. 

The grey cloud looming above my head didn't really go away...it just sort of changed into a heavy weight on my heart...

...and a fear growing in my brain like a tumor.

I'm not a baby, I'm a tumor!

 2. Work was actually pretty nice and I got to chat with Kelsie :) This made me feel A LOT better. She helped me talk through my irrational fears, and brought a calm to my heart. I guess she is good at connecting me with an eternal perspective because we used to be bunk-mates in the pre-existence.

This was my favorite "bunk-mates" picture.

3. I came home from work and the migraine that started yesterday after a bad nap and too many shouting people came back. I was planning on doing some weight training or tennis, but I ended up laying on the couch and watching an amazing episode of Star Trek.

4. My friend came over and helped me with my car. Good ole' Holden helped me fix my cigarette lighter, so I can charge things in my car, and he checked all of my fuses! After he left I cleaned out my trunk and finally fixed my broken seat belt! So that felt nice.

5. CRAZY GIRL EMOTION TIME. WHY DOES JUNO GET A BABY? BABY TIMER! DOES HE LIKE ME MORE THAN AS A FRIEND? DOES HE LIKE MY FRIEND AS MORE THAN A FRIEND? AM I ANNOYING HIM? CRAZY. CRAZY. CRAZY.

What's next? Insert romantic French movie, as if that's going to help.

6. Watch Heartbreaker. By the way, I really liked it. It's not rated, and it's French, but I have to say, it was pretty clean considering. I liked it, but...

7. CRAZY. CRAZY. CRAZY. Listen to mellow songs like Fake Plastic Trees over and over again.

8. Stay up too late writing a blog about nothing. And here we are.